Yes, I know- I've been MIA for many months. Finally employed, doing work I am actually qualified to do. Ideal fit, no- but at least I can do the work expected of me. It is a far better fit than my 16 month sentence in Energy Hell. I can say that my worst day at CellMark is still better than my best day at Dreyfus. And, a paycheck is a beautiful thing.
Now, I face and grapple with the knowledge that I am turning 40- in 16 short days. What have I done in the last 10 years? What are my goals, dreams and hopes for the next 10 years? Am I older and wiser? Can I reclaim that joyous child and learn to laugh and play in my 40's? I haven't done much of either in the past 20 years.
I wish my mom and grandmother were still around. I wonder what wisdom they would offer as I turn another decade. My mom was 40 when she had me. I'm still scheming for a dog, my first trip overseas and hopefully a house before I have to go into assisted living.
Guess time will reveal all.
