I've come to the conclusion that my world has grown much smaller over the past several years, while others around me have seen their worlds grow much larger in scope. And the challenge is not to be resentful or jealous. Well hell, nobody ever said being human was easy. Maybe I'll get lucky and come back as one of my godpuppies in the next life.
I was hope sick with pneumonia again and had a small burst of energy. I was looking for a folder of sewing patterns but found something else in the process. One last folder of college/graduate school papers. This must have been part of a career counseling workshop during senior year. Never doubt- the Universe does have divine timing and a sense of humor. I guess I needed a visit with my 20 year old self last week to restore perspective.
Some of the list:
Complete a masters in elementary education
Make a positive difference in kids' lives
Become a special education teacher/ guidance counselor
Help others in a meaningful way
Have a family
Restore my dream house
Be a service dog puppy raiser
Travel
Learn to sketch
Learn to cook
Stay in shape
Continue learning
Keep in touch with friends
Be independent in everything
Be secure in who I am
Make those who doubt I can succeed eat their words
Stay involved with community service projects
Spend time with the elderly and the very young
Keep laughing through my challenges
Embrace life for what it is- even when it sucks
It was interesting to see how my 20 year old vision measures up against my approaching 44 year old reality. I've accomplished some of this list. Other goals didn't happen. Some may still be possible. Dad and I have been talking about end of life plans- for him, for my sister and for myself. Life is unpredictable and these conversations need to happen while everyone is capable. Revisiting this list reminded me to not allow my world to get too small.
That 20 year old had some wise ideas about how to live life. Maybe I should start tackling this list again- with purpose.
